Love bug

Approaching 5 years into the relationship,and what's the next issue would you wanna discuss with your lover?Marriage, inevitably, would come up in your mind spontaneously if you are witty enough.

I attended my colleague's wedding banquet at York Hotel at Orchard yesterday night, and there he was, treading on a slow but steady procession on the red carpet with his wife with whom he is going to spend the entire life. The newly wedded couples looked exceptionally fabulous, that's why in Malay language we have the simpulan bahasa(idiomatic phrase) called "Raja sehari". They were both king and queen the night, having all the eyes focused on them while being on the stage. Video footages of both of them growing up were played and then also the things that they have been doing together, photos of the places they have travelled to, and the marriage ceremony they had to go through before coming together as a legally married husband and wife.

So, back to myself, is my gf the one I really wanna marry? It's an important issue now, as I need to know whether I really can't live without her. Is it really that serious? Yes, of course when it comes to marrying somebody and living with her for the rest of my life. If it is not clear, then one might end up marrying somebody and end up getting a divorce which would spell disaster to each one's life. It can be a catastrophy. The truth is, you can be happy with your lover before getting married and then there's chance that you will argue with him every day after marriage.
I am not thinking that far ahead,but right now at this moment, I believe that I am rather not so happy, though the nostalgic feeling keeps on rolling in insidiously as I slowly reminisce the sweet memories we had together and how nice and fulfilling gf she was until I said that we need a break up. Yes, that's the climax. I said break up to her yesterday night, in a really serious manner, not considering the teary eyes I had while talking to her about that.